I'm sorry that i cant help because i just cant think of anything i could do to help. But i wish you the best of luck. If you make it that would be very cool! But if not you need to say to yourself that its ok because not a lot of people are successful they're first try. I'm not saying you wont be successful, because even though not a lot of people get big they're first try, some do. So even though I can't help (At least i don't think i can...) I really wish you all the luck in the world. But i do kind of feel you will be successful because you sound like you really want this and if you do want this as bad as it sounds then even if you do fail the first time, really keep trying because eventually you will get it, and then become wealthy or maybe even rich. So once again, best of luck, hope you make it big, and DON'T give up, because you WILL get it someday.
-xxkill3rxx
Mosaab
Good luck. I'll check later and see if there's anything I'd want.